Two Zero One Eight


Been a long time!~ Holiday will come to the end soon. Time flies like an arrow, especially when you're at home. Definitely. Never mind. Oh anyway... HELLO 2018. 19 years old 9 days Nazira is walking into 20 years old world wuho! Good luck babe.

So, I'm keeping my previous post in draft section since I'm starting to dislike about it. Yeah whatever, I'm going to live abnormally and at this circumstances, I don't mind and I don't care. Having that kind of feeling was suck and I'm wishing to get rid of it fully from my life. Let's live better than before. Expectation is the root of all heartache. I've been through lot of things. Let's clear unwanted feelings, reset my heart and whatsoever. 

What's up 2 weeks of holiday? I watched Jumanji Welcome To The Jungle 2 times. But the most important one is... I celebrated my 19th birthday. And the person that I was hoping to wish for my birthday... DIDN'T WISH ANYTHING :'D Thanks for that anyway. I'm going further from you. I moved because of your words but then that was just nothing. An ordinary chat. Not even special. It was just nothing.

Your silence is the loudest to me. 

After train of thoughts playing in my mind, I finally understand. Sometimes, you didn't get what you desire because your desires might just a few, but you deserve a lot. One of my friends wrote that kind of quotes in a birthday card and gave it to me. Thanks buddy! Oh, he even gave me cadbury OREO. Yummy! Oh no, my tummy is growling! Current time : 2.38A.M. 

Alright, I'm out of ideas. Last but not least, let's talk about 2018.Gonna be tough year, I guess. I mean, of course! Life should be harder when we get older right? Love or not, challenge yourself. Remember, Allah tests you, because He knows you can get through that. You're stronger that you think! 

Here's my goals for 2018, just some goals that popped in my mind.
  1. Get thinner! Oh yes please! Lately, I ate too much and a bit concerned about my health and weight too! Since I am short girl... Yeah whatever.
  2. I would like to spread smile! Omg I love people's smile so much! Warm smiles give me positive vibes, a lot! 
  3. Gain my confidence level of course. I'm going to socialize with many people. So get rid of shyness! Mingle around.
  4. Stop having any unwanted feeling. Especially towards a person. You gotta need time for yourself, this time. Chin up babe! 

I got a lot of things in my mind. But I guess that's all for now. Leaving, see you! Adios!

Thanks for reading! :D

Push and Pull; Force?


''Well, I lied.''

What's up, readers? I'm back with lot of things to tell, to share, to type. Not going to make a long introduction. Guess what? I survived and got chance to continue my study here in the same program. Getting full scholarship is super lucky but then the struggle is no joke that you almost die. So I currently in the middle of Short Semester in 2nd Year. Last year, there was short semester too. We did 書道 (shodou - calligraphy) of Kanji, and also handmade 巻きずし (makizushi - sushi rolled in nori seaweed something like that). It was fun but need to mention that we also need to attend class like usual. -__- 

But current short semester is like........... Hurkkkkk!

I'm still in the same class, Electrical & Electronic Engineering 1. The layout of the class still the same but we shuffled the seats. I finally got the chance to sit at the center wuhoo! Well, uhm, not really at the center but VERY much better than before. Before this, I have to wear my pink ''fashionable'' glasses because the whiteboard was damn far. I remembered when I almost cried cause I couldn't read anything on the slide, in chemistry class. LOL. Alhamdulillah I survived~ Now, satisfied for the seat but the class, not really. 

Let's talk about how my life begin for this semester. Malaysian studies! I cant even imagine that I will learn sejarah again. Let me tell you, I always got C in sejarah. I couldnt get into first class in high school because of that subject. I never got B for sejarah I guess but I barely made to get grade A for sejarah on Trial PMR, and cried, LOL. -___- So imagine that I need to face the same thing again...... pray for meh guys. Next is mathematics. I mentioned this for 973987394793 times, I am a math lover. Since... idk... till now. I know it's getting hard, I always got hard time with you too but it cant vanish my love to you. No matter hard you are, let's be together forever. (ehhhh)

Last but not least, 電気電子。I need to pull up my sock, improving in this subject I choose electrical engineering because I wanna get rid of mechanical engineering (lot of people said this too LOL) and I'm still trying to love it like how I love mathematics. I couldnt get 4.0 in second semester because physics (electrical thing lol). I get hard time to understand the circuit. I mean like, required long period to understand a simple thing. And I was like.... come on Nazira, this is just a surface for this course. And now I'm pulling a long face. No matter what, I need to struggle for it. I know I can do it. But hello where's the booster? I need inspirational thing to gain spirit too. Family and friends will do. 

Have lot of things in my mind but never mind, see you people.
Lot of loves, from me.

Thanks for reading! :D

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